For four days in June of 2011, I kept a dream journal. My larger intent was to practice recalling my dreams so that I could become more likely to have lucid dreams. If you don’t know, lucid dreaming is a state where the dreamer is aware that they are dreaming while they remain sleeping. The dreamer can sometimes control their actions in the dream with a certain amount of consciousness. My desire to have lucid dreams stemmed from a series of “visions” and “altered states of mind” which I had been experiencing while awake and, more intensely, half asleep. These events gave me feelings of ultimate knowledge and clarity, which I believe to be insights into the nature of nothingness, the infinite, and the possibility of unknowing.
I have been between housing situations lately and moving all of my belongings from here to there. When I re-discovered my Lucid Dream Log, I felt that it must be a sign. As you assuredly know by now, I have retired from art. My first major post-retirement project was “Dana T’s Shopping Show” which has received no response from corporate television companies on Twitter. The failure of this and the under-whelming launch of the Dana T Store has prompted me to search for a non-commercial pathway to explore for the rest of my life. By revisiting the documentation that remains from my elevated spiritual state of two years ago, I hope to gain insight into exactly where my life after art should go. I invite you to join me in the analysis of my Lucid Dream Log which I have included in exact (as possible) digital representation of my handwritten notes. Please post your analyses and any suggestion for potential life routes in the comments section at the bottom of the post.
Dana T’s Lucid Dream Log
Mr. Wilson said the tuba players
were the only ones who hadn’t looked
at the sheet music. I hold
the sheet music in front of
me. didn’t see hands. – I’m walking
through an apartment building avoiding
someone who is following. I get in
my apt and the youngest Harris
boy is my roomate. he is playing
xbox. Asks if I want some pie.
I say I’ve never made one but
I had the filling to do it.
-I’m at a party with people like
Jim Patterson + Romeo. I call
the video game the wrong system
the Nintendo 64 controllers are referred
to by them as Japanese controllers.
They watch a video of me doing
something really dumb and I don’t
remember it happening.
Cortney Kalpin Wellman throws a benefit
at my apt. I don’t have a date.
I get a message from a girl
named something like Elm Bear. Beer Behr
with pictures of me She called cute. looked
her up on Facebook then figured
out her email password was my name
and saw that she really was
in love with me. I ask her to
prom and talk about the funny outfit I’ll wear.
Scott wants to go to Davenport
to Griggs. I start driving but I
can’t control the car along the curves.
We Switch drivers before durant.
We get to Davenport but go downtown
instead where he gets a beer. I know
Griggs will close soon. Two girls meet
us that I don’t know. Scott gives
them 100$ for pills which he puts
in my pocket. He takes one and
so do I. We start driving
again. the road Seem clear then
blurry. Scott txts and drives the
message saying man it feels good
to go on life auto-pilot at 39 or
40 miles an hour. Things get crazy
and we end up stuck in the
truck in the rope-wires of the bridge.
-Adam is in my closet putting
on a bluejean skirt and jean
shirt then leaves.
Harry’s mother in law dies. I
Tonya stays and guy mows lawn
in Athletic shorts and
6-18 6:35 PM
False Awakening – Adam asks me to
help him out because he is stressed.
I walk out into his room
he is gone but theres a
dog. The main door is open
to the hallway and barricades
are set up so the dog won’t get away,
I notice this all is strange
so I ask myself if I’m dreaming
and pinch my hand. don’t know
if I realize I am or not.
Dog bit my finger at one point
too. Then wake up because I
knew Lindsey wanted to hang out
in real life.