For four days in June of 2011, I kept a dream journal. My larger intent was to practice recalling my dreams so that I could become more likely to have lucid dreams. If you don’t know, lucid dreaming is a state where the dreamer is aware that they are dreaming while they remain sleeping. The dreamer can sometimes control their actions in the dream with a certain amount of consciousness. My desire to have lucid dreams stemmed from a series of “visions” and “altered states of mind” which I had been experiencing while awake and, more intensely, half asleep. These events gave me feelings of ultimate knowledge and clarity, which I believe to be insights into the nature of nothingness, the infinite, and the possibility of unknowing.
I have been between housing situations lately and moving all of my belongings from here to there. When I re-discovered my Lucid Dream Log, I felt that it must be a sign. As you assuredly know by now, I have retired from art. My first major post-retirement project was “Dana T’s Shopping Show” which has received no response from corporate television companies on Twitter. The failure of this and the under-whelming launch of the Dana T Store has prompted me to search for a non-commercial pathway to explore for the rest of my life. By revisiting the documentation that remains from my elevated spiritual state of two years ago, I hope to gain insight into exactly where my life after art should go. I invite you to join me in the analysis of my Lucid Dream Log which I have included in exact (as possible) digital representation of my handwritten notes. Please post your analyses and any suggestion for potential life routes in the comments section at the bottom of the post.
Dana T’s Lucid Dream Log
6-15-11
Mr. Wilson said the tuba players
were the only ones who hadn’t looked
at the sheet music. I hold
the sheet music in front of
me. didn’t see hands. – I’m walking
through an apartment building avoiding
someone who is following. I get in
my apt and the youngest Harris
boy is my roomate. he is playing
xbox. Asks if I want some pie.
I say I’ve never made one but
I had the filling to do it.
-I’m at a party with people like
Jim Patterson + Romeo. I call
the video game the wrong system
the Nintendo 64 controllers are referred
to by them as Japanese controllers.
They watch a video of me doing
something really dumb and I don’t
remember it happening.
Cortney Kalpin Wellman throws a benefit
at my apt. I don’t have a date.
I get a message from a girl
named something like Elm Bear. Beer Behr
with pictures of me She called cute. looked
her up on Facebook then figured
out her email password was my name
and saw that she really was
in love with me. I ask her to
prom and talk about the funny outfit I’ll wear.
Scott wants to go to Davenport
to Griggs. I start driving but I
can’t control the car along the curves.
We Switch drivers before durant.
We get to Davenport but go downtown
instead where he gets a beer. I know
Griggs will close soon. Two girls meet
us that I don’t know. Scott gives
them 100$ for pills which he puts
in my pocket. He takes one and
so do I. We start driving
again. the road Seem clear then
blurry. Scott txts and drives the
message saying man it feels good
to go on life auto-pilot at 39 or
40 miles an hour. Things get crazy
and we end up stuck in the
truck in the rope-wires of the bridge.
-Adam is in my closet putting
on a bluejean skirt and jean
shirt then leaves.
6-16
Harry’s mother in law dies. I
Comfort Him.
6-17
Tonya stays and guy mows lawn
in Athletic shorts and
bright suspenders.
6-18 6:35 PM
False Awakening – Adam asks me to
help him out because he is stressed.
I walk out into his room
he is gone but theres a
dog. The main door is open
to the hallway and barricades
are set up so the dog won’t get away,
I notice this all is strange
so I ask myself if I’m dreaming
and pinch my hand. don’t know
if I realize I am or not.
Dog bit my finger at one point
too. Then wake up because I
knew Lindsey wanted to hang out
in real life.
you are a clearly a romantic
tuba in this case is a metaphor for tunnel
aka the birth canal into pre natal music
there is no sheet music for the void
which is why you are avoiding that which is “following” you
the entrance into unity
well there is only one ticket
the filling of pie if you will
Jim Patterson + Romeo is the merger of your functional self
and your romantic self
the one who brushes his teeth and as Bly says secretly farts in the elevator
is also the one who makes the sun rise
sometimes the controls get switched
and you end up making the sun rise in your pants
or hear the statue of the deity farting after a meal.
when the controls get mixed
sometimes amnesia happens and this is ok.
CKW is a famous poet who wrote “THE SINGING”
the flamboyant madness of a PAIR
aka you not having a date
this is your timeless state.
Elm Bear. The Elm is your lungs
and the Bear is who you become by breathing into your crotch
rather than superficially ala Facebook
the password being your name
is the philosophy of Yoga
and all roads lead to Rome
but you already know this
prom is the matrix
and the outfit is an illusion
it is awkward once you have pulled the plug out of your head.
Learning kung fu instantly is still A LOT OF WORK.
I’m pretty sure Scott is a demon.
Davenport is a piece of furniture.
This is the sublime yet risky venue for your couch potato tendencies to take root
if not enought unconditional love is used as a weapon.
beer, girls, money, pills, texting and driving, this is clearly
Darth Vader before he has been saved by Luke.
Darth really just wants to be loved
to be held, for life to be on auto pilot
the Death Star is so tiresome
the rope wires of the bridge, stuck in the purgatory
between too bodies of land
the constant meaningless work
Ipad funhouse etc
the cascading to do lists of the damned.
so of course Adam appears
the guy who started this whole darkness business
and of course he is putting clothes on
I’m surprised his not eating apple sauce
and ribs on Christmas Eve.
This is temporary don’t worry.
But Adam is the nudist
both the freedom
and the shame
that duality needs to be soldered
into a white hot nudity beyond quality
tantric fuck me pumps for the soul.
Harry and Voldemort locking wands
like some sort of extra terrestrial french kiss.
Tonya is the north star
around which everything spins
and the mowing of the lawn
is actually the drone of the spinning zodiac
the suspenders are the sunrise
the future the sweaty labor of your true calling
the false shame of Adam
the realization that the garden
has never been corrupted
that apples are beautiful
and so are snakes
that the main door to Jesus
and/or Satan and/or Buddha and/or your Higher Self
DOG aka GOD
the hallway and the barricades
are the depth of your devotion to the highest possible potential inside of you
your unwavering commitment to imprisoning the infinite in the finite
so that your life becomes superconducted
to dream away the dream
to the bone of truth
the tooth of the GOD annihilating everything that can be annihilated so
that what remains is reality
real life
and the YES
that LindSEY represents.
You should definitely be a dentist.
Dana, thanks for the tips. Starting a dream log is a great way to start practicing lucid dreaming.
Couple nights ago I had a surreal lucid dreaming experience.
The experience was really unreal-feeling really, since deep inside my head I realized that I was actually still snoring in my bed right as I was flying over the galaxy at two billion meters a minute. Though I understand that it took a lot of conditioning to achieve this level of lucid dreaming, I completely believe that it was well worth the effort.
When I first discovered lucid dreaming I tried various free electronic “courses” I found while scanning Google. But, after attempting these approaches for around three months I still had no authority over my nightmares.
I conclude that the primary element that they were missing was the effective science backing that I got when I bought a professional lucid dreaming method with considerably satisfactory reviews, the Lucid Dreaming Fast Track – http://www.reviewspanel.com/lucid-dreaming-fast-track/.
When lucid dreaming now I can literally do any thing I want (though usually I like travelling through the oceans).
I am a lucid dreamer myself and I am doing it since I was 16 and now it’s more than 10 years than lucid dreaming is making my life wonderful. Don’t be afraid of dreaming whatever you want..